Jeeze. I’m the worst.

As expected, I have not been keeping up with this. Anyone surprised?

Why can’t I manage to follow through with this anymore? I’m stupid.

Oh well, no more promises. I will write when I write. I will try to write more.

Today, I am typing up my hand written edits from my second draft. I have high hopes it will help me push through and get going again so I can finish my second draft. I found a friend willing to read it who knows nothing about the story so I will have fresh eyes to tell me if it makes sense or not haha.

I also am going to finish reading The Handmaid’s Tale. I have been reading this damn book for months. And don’t get me wrong, I am enjoying it. It is a good book. I am the problem here. It’s me, not the book. As per usual, I can’t stay focused on a single thing for long enough to finish it. But I decided I am going to finally read Harry Potter because my niece is reading it and I like to have things to talk with her about so I need to finish Handmaid’s Tale today. That will get done. I am more than halfway through so I know if I just sit and focus I can read it.

Focusing gets harder and harder every day. The past 3 weeks I have woken up at 4am every day. I don’t know why and I can’t figure out how to stop. I am pretty much at a point where I am always tired. The more tired I am, the less I want to do anything. It makes everything so much harder. So for now I am just gunna try and push through it. I started taking melatonin but so far it hasn’t done the trick. Just another thing to learn to deal with. Add it my list…

In other news, I entered one of my foster kittens into a pet contest on Imgur. His name was Flynn and he was a sweet little weirdo kitten that stole my heart and was going to be a foster fail and stay with me. Unfortunately, he had a congenital birth defect and passed away. It was very hard for me and I still tear up thinking about him. I decided I wanted to have a portrait made of him and in my search for someone to do it, I came across this contest. The winner gets a pet portrait done of their pet and a $500 donation to a pet charity of their choice. I know the group I foster for could really use this money so I entered my little Flynn into this contest. It is open for voting and submissions until 8/19. At the moment, Flynn is high enough to possibly get noticed when judging starts but he has slowed down considerably. I don’t normally ask this stuff of people but if you are reading this and you have Imgur (you have to have an account to vote) if you wouldn’t mind popping over and giving him an upvote I would really appreciate it. He was a special little kitten and I would love to be able to do something good in his name.


Okay, I am going to stop staring at this blinking cursor and just end this post so I can start working on other things.

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Here’s a picture of my current foster kitten, Kumquat. He’s cute and a Polydactyl! A very unique and cuddly kitten looking for his home!